Wednesday, August 01, 2012
"If I were thinking clearly, I would tell you that I wrestle alone in the dark, in the deep dark, and that only I can know. Only I can understand my condition. You live with the threat, you tell me you live with the threat of my extinction. I live with it too."
Virginia Woolf, The Hours
that day You walked away
with it, You took my mind, my heart
in tears, crying silent drops of hope
for a single word
that day You walked away.
in split moment, i recognised
that this was not so different after all
it was not the first and will not be the last
yet my heart is still torn
that day You walked away
i asked myself, if one could ever mend
a broken soul and a heart that never
lived before...
i breathe to feel the pain;
heart, consoling mind
says 'don't worry, i am alive'
that day You walked away.
in grief, i called You in silent words
begged for You to see
the bleeding heart, struggling to be free
in chains, I kneed in front of Fate,
uttering murmurs of desperate prayers
to release me from this mental cage
it was not meant to be this
psychotic illusions that plagues
i keep seeing
that day You walked away
in time, it blurs
becomes surreal
that day You walked away
in my torn and illusory world
that day You walked away
Sunday, August 01, 2010
When we two parted - George Gordon, Lord Byron
When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.
- The dew of the morning
- Sunk chill on my brow--
- It felt like the warning
- Of what I feel now.
- Thy vows are all broken,
- And light is thy fame:
- I hear thy name spoken,
- And share in its shame.
-
- They name thee before me,
- A knell to mine ear;
- A shudder comes o'er me--
- Why wert thou so dear?
- They know not I knew thee,
- Who knew thee too well:
- Lond, long shall I rue thee,
- Too deeply to tell.
-
- I secret we met--
- I silence I grieve,
- That thy heart could forget,
- Thy spirit deceive.
- If I should meet thee
- After long years,
- How should I greet thee?
- With silence and tears.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
The Plains of Ilium
Rage.
Sing, O Muse, of the rage of Achilles, of Peleus' son, murderous, man-killer, fated to die, sing of the rage that cost the Achaean so many good men and sent so many vital, hearty souls down to the dreary House of Death.
Sing, O Muse, of the rage of Achilles, of Peleus' son, murderous, man-killer, fated to die, sing of the rage that cost the Achaean so many good men and sent so many vital, hearty souls down to the dreary House of Death.
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
Catharsis
it was as if life plays itself out in short scenes
flashes – slowly, quietly, painfully
uttered out in words, lines by painted faces
we sit, at the edge, anticipating and yearning
somewhere, we tell ourselves,
“let my life not be this” or nod mentally even as emotions stir
“yes, yes, I know what this is”
betraying nothing on our faces
they speak for us.
utter our pain, a scene for our grief
be our sadness, be our souls
transforms
for that one single moment
disengage
they speak to us.
with such vicariousness, we play our lives out
alive, yet not living
emotional, yet not feeling
we purge ourselves
their misery is our relief; their pain, our joy
yet, we fail, no catharsis is real
every purge erodes, eats away
in the end, catharsis never comes.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Remember - Christina Rosetti
REMEMBER me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go, yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go, yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
... perfectly imperfect ...
...words, words,words
are all we have...
~Tom Stoppard, Rosencrantz and Guilderstern are Dead~
are all we have...
~Tom Stoppard, Rosencrantz and Guilderstern are Dead~
Never fails
And Always Amuse
The dramatic irony
Of worlds and words
We find ourselves
Perennially searching
In eternal endlessness…
Only to return
To the one which
Eludes
Millions around
In so many forms
Yet, struggles
To find the one
Who speaks,
The meaning of us
Convoluted, complicated, complex
Confusing
Sense is made
World created
Only to know it
Is temporal
We seek comfort in the mastery of words
But even as pen meets paper,
We realize that we are merely scratching
life
In an instant can be erased.
No word
Suffices.
Suddenly, blank
Silence erupts.
And Always Amuse
The dramatic irony
Of worlds and words
We find ourselves
Perennially searching
In eternal endlessness…
Only to return
To the one which
Eludes
Millions around
In so many forms
Yet, struggles
To find the one
Who speaks,
The meaning of us
Convoluted, complicated, complex
Confusing
Sense is made
World created
Only to know it
Is temporal
We seek comfort in the mastery of words
But even as pen meets paper,
We realize that we are merely scratching
life
In an instant can be erased.
No word
Suffices.
Suddenly, blank
Silence erupts.
Sunday, November 09, 2008
special tribute to the hundred acre wood gang.
Etched
like imprints on the shoreline at low tide
memories
do not fade away
gone but never far from sight
recurring, repeating, remaining…
etched…
the faces…
the joys…
the times…
like clouds that hang in the skies
ever-changing, solitude in groups
occupy our skies…
dissipating, forming, re-forming…
like the thunderstorm that rages with fury
times and events we braved through together
but has to end…
like the imprint of a tattoo
ever-lasting, you are
etched
the lives
the memories
you and I
To the hundred acre wood gang who most likely wont read this site, this is dedicated to you for the times you shared with me and thank you for letting me be part of your lives. live on, live well.
like imprints on the shoreline at low tide
memories
do not fade away
gone but never far from sight
recurring, repeating, remaining…
etched…
the faces…
the joys…
the times…
like clouds that hang in the skies
ever-changing, solitude in groups
occupy our skies…
dissipating, forming, re-forming…
like the thunderstorm that rages with fury
times and events we braved through together
but has to end…
like the imprint of a tattoo
ever-lasting, you are
etched
the lives
the memories
you and I
To the hundred acre wood gang who most likely wont read this site, this is dedicated to you for the times you shared with me and thank you for letting me be part of your lives. live on, live well.